It started at midnight. I was ready to sleep, ready to release me from my reigns to the conscious world, when I got a message from CK. "The application of ICX Manager is going to be closed in 12 hours. Do appreciate this opportunity as others need to wait for a year to be in the management team whereas you can do it NOW. Believe me it'd be an intensive, fulfilling and fun learning experience. So why hesitate? Just apply-lah..." I was wholly set on saying no. I had other things on my mind. My mountain of study, my other activities. But this message triggered something in me. I was reconsidering. I was torn. I turned to look through the list of people that were online. There was Tommy. So I talked to him. We were going through the same dilemma. We needed seniors! So I checked my list again. Melvin was online too. So I talked to him. Then I found out, Kit was online too. Now Kit really cares about us and is really willing to listen, so we ended up bombing him too. And by 2am or 3am I was ready. I wrote in my application and sent it in. It was an amazing morning. I felt so lucky that I had so many people to talk to. And they were willing to just listen to me and help me along. And they cared about me enough to talk till so late and share what they think. I fell asleep feeling happy. I took a step and the road is going to bring me far.
I love being in AIESEC. I've been bonded to the people, their warmth and passion. I was committed to something worthwhile. It's a positive place to grow and try my hand at doing something. It's a place where I find out more about myself and try to become a better, greater person. It's my support group where everyone pulls each other up. It's where I can go crazy and have fun. And so I feel so lucky to be a part of it. I'm so glad I have it. And that I stayed.
I woke up to eat my favorite college breakfast of the week, kaya toast! Yes, I revel in the simplest things. But it was a great start. I usually eat with my roommates, Effie and Stefanie and it's always fun. I have great roommates and it didn't matter that they weren't Muslims at all. I've had so much fun with them just being in the same room. And that's all I need. I always liked having friends as roommates and I don't regret it. It made the whole argument that separated the Muslims and non-Muslims (saying that they'd be arguments, etc.) redundant. And I'm happy I break the stereotype.
I had lunch with Kee Aun. I was surprised seeing that I was the only one invited and even more surprised when he offered to belanja. I didn't mind of course. He was offering me to be under his official team for his campaign. I was sort of shocked. I thought there'd be better people or friends that he'd know but he offered it to me. I didn't hesitate too much actually and I said yes. We started planning stuff right away!
Only for a moment I thought, gosh, what was I putting myself through? But I'm going to eat up the whole cake. I swear I would.
It was so amazing that other people could see potential in me that I never saw in myself. Things which I thought wasn't in me were things that they saw me becoming and flourishing at. Even now I wonder of how it could be? It couldn't be true. But if it is, I want to see it for myself. I want to know if I could truly be that great. I feel great and I feel like I'm expanding into something bigger and brighter. I wasn't just ugly little caterpillar but I was a butterfly too. And I feel so happy, so grateful that I could be here and be this way. I feel like I've almost fully accepted being where I am. I was meeting great people and great things are happening to me even though I'm not in UK or US or France or NZ or Australia or Japan. I leave just a little bit of dissatisfaction. Just enough to be hungry for more.
Then there was the departmental meeting, which I believed was going to be a bore. Boy, oh boy, wasn't I proved wrong. Then my favorite lecturer, Dr Faisal Rafiq that became the dean, stepped up and told us what he did. I literally had stars in my eyes. I was amazed by all the changes that were going on. I was cheering inside at all the opportunities that he was presenting us. I was truly a nerd at heart and I was so inspired. It seems that there was a reason why I chose Computer Engineering after all, I liked the possibilities, and he was going to make things happen, giving us opportunities to go out there and grow and be fantastic. I want to study now. My subjects are way cooler than I ever had at any semester and I had a reason to TOUCH the computers in the CE labs. I was in ecstasy. I was finally interested in studying!
Then I had heart to heart talks with Lavania and Firdy. We shared what we've been going through recently and we reinforced our support to each other. Because friends are there for you no matter what. And I love when it's proved to me again and again. We wanted to make plans. We want to do something together. We wanted to... camwhore! Project RB9! 10 themes at different places! We were so excited thinking about the clothes and the colours. We are going to have fun together!
I feel like I have so much this semester, and it's going to be magical. I'm grateful to be given these opportunities. I am going to enjoy every single bit of it and it's like finally, this is what my life should be about. And I'm grabbing on to it with everything I got. And I am, surely, going to fly.
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