Tonight, illogically, is blog night.
This is a short quip of the stereotypes that are associated
with tech companies today. And as an atom moving around these ecosystems, one
gets apprehensive on where to land next. What do I become part of?
Sure, the story is inspiring, and maybe somewhat glorifies
the effort. But then again, every battle is glorified anyway. The struggles may
be somewhat mediocre in the larger scheme of things. What do the users care
about Facebook’s engineering? The vicious, selfish sludge of the masses only
care about getting their Facebook page up and running fast. And sometimes, is a
company/industry-wide recognition enough for going through all that crap?
And this is only part of the questions that are raised
within me while I try and figure out, who I want to be and where I want to be in
the whole scheme of things. Where do I want to be?
It’s not enough to just choose something at random and
sludge through – be miserable, get the money, enjoy yourself at the weekends.
It has to be something that I love, something that I can be really passionate
about! So that I can be great! So I can be of help to others. So I can be happy
every single day of my life. Some people get the calling, they hear and they
immediately seek what they do. I am still miserably confused. I don’t know what
to do. I’m still figuring myself out.
Reading this article also opened my eyes to the view of
extreme geekidom. Sometimes it is boring. People do get bored at looking at
code. And I have a short and very picky attention span. I like, I obsess, I
move on. What on earth makes me think that I could be a great coding guru? I
haven’t done any earth shattering major projects. I cannot build my own virtual
machine to convert PHP to native. If I was seriously interested wouldn’t I have
done something already?
I have some fantasies on where I might fit in. I want to be
a YouTube celebrity. I want to be a writer. I want to be a scientific explorer.
I want to be an idea-generator: manifest it through art, technology, music. I
want to know people with amazing psyche. I want to travel.
I have a feeling that being a whole “personality” thing would
help if I looked really hot. Which I do not at the moment. *sigh*
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